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Rezna Khatun  \nCRezna Khatun 2019  \nEdited by Marcia M Publishing House Editorial Team withcontributions by Shelley Allmark and Dawn Spence-Lewis.  \nCover photograph the property of Rezna Khatun HouseEditorial Team published by Marcia M Spence of Marcia MPublishing House,West Bromwich,West Midlands,the UNITEDKINGDOM B71.  \nAll rights reserved 2019 Marcia M Publishing HouseISBN:9781999302665  \nThis book is sold subject to the conditions it is not,by way oftrade or otherwise,lent,hired out or otherwise circulated inany form of binding or cover other than that in which it ispublished.No part of this publication may be reproduced,stored in a retrieval system or transmitted in any form or by anymeans (electronic,mechanical,photocopying,recording orotherwise)without prior written permission from the Author orPublisher.  \nTABLE OF CONTENTS  \nDEDICATION……………………………………………………………………………V  \nWHAT IS A NARCISSIST?……………………………………………………………vii  \nPREAMBLE……………………………………  \n………………………………………………1x  \nAUTHOR’S FOREWORD………………………………………………………xvii  \nTO HIM……………………………………………………………………………………xix  \nCHAPTER ONE: HOWIT ALL STARTED………………………………1  \nCHAPTER TWO: THE SPECIAL OCCASION………………………7  \nCHAPTER THREE: PLAN B: BANGLADESH………………………11  \nCHAPTER FOUR: BACK IN LONDON………………………………17  \nCHAPTER FIVE:MY KNIGHT IN SHINING ARMOUR…19  \nCHAPTER SIX: THE BIRTH OFMY SON…………………………29  \nCHAPTER SEVEN: THINGS WILL NEVER CHANGE…37  \nCHAPTER EIGHT: THE ONLY HOPE THAT I HAD………43  \nRELATIONSHIP……………………………………………………………………………55  \n# DEDICATED TO\n\nAll those who are in,or have been in,any kind ofabusive relationship.Those who might not have thesupport of friends and family and have lost thestrength or hope to leave.I want others tounderstand how it feels,to understand the pain,thethoughts,the emotions and beliefs that are prevalentwithin such a relationship.  \nYou must have hope and believe that one day youwill walk out and not look back.Never give up hope;once you decide that,you will be on the road toachieving your freedom.  \nTo all the charities who work so hard and give somuch time and effort to understand,help andsupport us;they don't shut the door on us,they givecontinuous assistance.  \nMy amazing brother,Miraz Ali,who is my rock.Iwish that every girl had a brother like him.Wordscannot describe the support and love he has for allhis sisters.  \nMy powerful friends who never quit on me.I wouldnot have the strength without these strong women.Icall them The Boss Lady:Ms Erica Francoise,TheLittle Powerful Lady:Ms Uzma Karim,The MuscleLady:Ms Tessa De Silva(she takes no mercy)and MsMariam Ali.  \nMy sister Riba Isla,who would text me and thenremind me that I have a loving family who careabout me.  \nLove you all,and words cannot thank you enough.You will always have a place in my heart.  \nThank you dearly.  \n# WHAT IS A NARCISSIST?\n\nMy husband was a narcissist.  \nNarcissistic personality disorder(NPD)involves apattern of self-centred,arrogant thinking andbehaviour,a lack of empathy and consideration forother people,and an excessive need for admiration.Others often describe people with NPD as cocky,manipulative,selfish,patronising,and demanding.The narcissist pretends to have morals,beliefs andrespect.However,behind closed doors,they aremanipulative,deceitful and abusive;all to get whatthey want.If you ever question them or suggest thatthey are wrong,they will make you wish you hadn't.Narcissists don't know the meaning or the feeling oflove;that is what is missing in their mind.They areenergy suckers;they drain energy from those aroundthem with their manipulative behaviour.A narcissistwill leave you exhausted and questioning yourself.The only way of escape is to cut them out of your lifecompletely.  \nJust so that I was able to understand what type ofperson I was dealing with,I started googlinginformation and watching videos of experts talkingabout narcissistic behaviour on 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