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Drawing on the author’s questions and answers, the work examines foundational Islamic themes across major areas such as the Shahadah, the Qur’an, and the role of reason and faith. It also addresses prophetic tradition, the ummah, community life, and broader ethical and social questions including gender, law, jihad, apostasy, and relations with Ahl al-Kitab.","Struggling to Surrender  \nDedication:  \n“To Jameelah, Sara & Fattin”  \nAlso, I would like to thank amana publications and its production and editorial staff for their kind and enthusiastic support and for their many very valuable suggestions. Special thanks to Br. Jay Willoughby for his careful editing of the book and to Br. Alȵ R.Abuµza‘kuµk for his careful reading and critique of the original manuscript.  \nJeffery Lang  \nStruggling to Surrender:  \nSome Impressions of an American Convert to Islam  \nJeffery Lang  \nSecond Revised Edition  \namana publications  \nBeltsville, Maryland, USA  \nFirst Edition  \n(1415 AH / 1994 AC)  \nSecond Revised Edition  \n(1416 AH / 1995 AC)  \n© Copyrights 1415 AH / 1994 AC by  \namana publications  \n10710 Tucker Street  \nBeltsville, Maryland 20705-2223 USA Tel: (301) 595-5777 • Fax: (301) 595-5888  \nLibrary of Congress Cataloging-in-Publication Data  \nLang, Jeffrey 1954 (1373)—  \nStruggling to Surrender: Some Impressions of an American Convert to Islam / by Jeffrey Lang, 2nd Rev. Ed.  \np. 244 cm 22 1/2 x 15  \nIncludes bibliographical references  \nISBN 0-915957-26-4  \n1. Lang, Jeffrey.  \n2. Muslim converts—United States.  \nI. Title.  \nBP170 .5.L36 1995  \n297’.42—dc20  \n[B] 94-29827 CIP  \nPrinted in the United States of America by International Graphics 10710 Tucker Street, Beltsvile, Maryland 20705-2223 USA Tel: (301) 595-5999 • Fax: (301) 595-5888  \nContents  \nPreface ........................................vii  \nChapter 1: The Shahadah .........................1  \nChapter 2: The Qur’an ..........................19  \nInitial Observations: ...................22  \nA Challenge to Reason—Parallels with the  \nOld and New Testaments  \nCentral Considerations: .................38  \nQur’anic Imagery—Back to me “Signs”—The Role of Reason—Faith and Reason—Allegory—Satans and Jinn—Time and Eternity—Man’s Purpose in Life—The Straight Path  \nInner Considerations ...................62  \nChapter 3: Rasul Allah ..........................69  \nBeginning with the Qur’an—In the Mosque  \n—Hadith, Sunnah, and Sirah—The New Testament and the Hadith—Expectations—Western Criticism of the Traditions—A Question of Need—A Question of Truth—Who is Muhammad?  \nChapter 4: The Ummah ........................119  \nQuestions .......................... 127  \nFamily ............................ 130  \nPerspectives ........................ 137  \nTo the Islamic Center .................140  \nWomen in the Qur’an: .................142  \nThe Male and the Female—Rights and Responsibilities—Beginnings and Endings  \n—Ways to Paradise—Beyond Husband and Wife—A Woman’s Witness—Leadership—A Woman’s Dress—Education and Segregation—The Woman’s Complaint  \nLaw and State .......................182  \nJihad .............................. 183  \nFaith and Power .....................190  \nApostasy ........................... 195  \nChapter 5: Ahl al Kitab ........................201  \nRevelation and History: An Interpretation—Ahl al Kitab (People of the Book)—MuslimChrisitan Dialogue—The Israeli-Palestinian Problem—Ties of Kinship  \nParting Thoughts . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . .230  \nPREFACE  \nAlmost everything of their beauty could be traced to northern Europe—the delicate angularity of their features, their fair complexions, their long, luxuriant golden-brown hair—but not their eyes: large, flashing dark brown eyes, the type you might steal a glance from at an outdoor market or on a village street in Arabia, the type that sees right through you and lingers in your memory for a long time.  \n“Why did you become a Muslim?” asked one of my two interrogators. What answer would their innocence comprehend? Both gazed up at me dispassionately, as if they had all eternity to wait for an explanation. Maybe they were not meant to understand but only to ask, to initiate the process of self-examination.  \nNo, I thought, their question was more personal than that. I remember when I asked my own father why he had become a Catholic. 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