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The beginning ……………………………………………5  \nChapter Two- the Real Beginning……………………………………8  \nChapter Three-Complications …………………………………………13  \nChapter Four-Gamblers Anonymous………………………………19  \nChapter Five-Slots of Pain…………………………………………………21  \nChapter Six-Lies and Consequences ………………………………23  \nChapter Seven-Not another relapse!………………………………27  \nChapter Eight - All in the Family………………………………………32  \nChapter Nine-A real lucky break ……………………………36  \nChapter Ten- Another story………………………………………………45  \nChapter Eleven -What seems to work ……………………………47  \nChapter Twelve-Some statistics to Ponder…………………52  \nChapter Thirteen-The Hope Factor……………………………54  \n……………………………58  \nResources……………………………………………………………  \nForward  \nIt's not easy admitting to yourself or to anyone else for thatmatter,that you are a compulsive gambler.I think it's evenharder than admitting you have a mental illness.It has becomesocially acceptable for women to gamble.Our government urgesus to gamble all in the name of education.But over the last twodecades I've seen firsthand what gambling can do.I know whatit has done to me and where I was headed.I hope that by tellingmy story that other women can see themselves clearer andhopefully help them to get off the path of self-destruction.Itreally can take it all from you,even your life.Please read thesepages as a gift and may God be with you.  \n# Chapter One -the Beginning\n\nI'm doing it again -walking around the casino floor in a daze.Idon't see anyone.I'm just staring ahead trying to think of someway of getting more money.I can’t go home because I know thatif I just had $20 more dollars I could hit a big jackpot and pay thebank back what I owe them now.I call this the Casino ZombieWalk.You see it a lot around 3 or 4 in the morning.It's not thatpeople are tired.It's that they know that not only have they spentall the money they came in with but they are now in a financialhole.I can't tell you how many times I did this“walk\".Then Iwould get in the car to go home and it would hit me.I'm going tohave to borrow money from someone or somewhere.And thenthe anger starts.Why did I do this again?Why did I bang myhead up against this wall again?  \nGambling became my best friend,but it didn't start out that way.The first time I gambled was in 1976 when I went with my Dad,Mom,Aunt and Uncle to Las Vegas for a fun trip.You wouldthink that a place like that for a gambler would be heaven,but Iwas actually disappointed with the experience.I got off the planeand there in the distance were the mountains.I was so  \ndisappointed that I couldn't see them up close.I wanted to touchthem,but I just ended up walking the strip until my feet wereswollen.I gambled my allotted money -so no problem there,butas I was young and naive I wore a black tight skirt and black andwhite top with black hose and black high heels.I thought youwere supposed to dress up to gamble there.The only thing I gotwas a guy sitting next to me acting like he thought I was a  \nhooker.Luckily I had the good sense to get up and move away.My increasing disappointment continued with the special show Iattended one evening with my parents and aunt and uncle.Wewent to a show where the women were nude from the waist upand it embarrassed me in front of my family.I was mortified.I  \nwanted to crawl out from under the table and sneak out,butno…….I just sat there and pretended to enjoy the show.When wegot up to leave,I couldn’t get my shoes back on so I had to l","cbCaijGJNqP9B7q4","https://ap.wps.com/l/cbCaijGJNqP9B7q4","pdf",2389642,64,"English","# Dedication\n# Forward\n# Chapter One - 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