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Вовтом  \nDigitized by the Internet Archivein 2022 with funding fromKahle/Austin Foundation  \nMutter  \nBrooke D.Borton  \nCover Art by Brooke D.Borton  \nMutterCopyright ◎2018 by Brooke D.Borton  \nAll rights reservedPrinted in the United States of America  \nNo part of this publication may be reproduced,stored in a retrievalsystem,or transmitted in any form or by any means,electronic,  \nmechanical,photocopying,recording,scanning,or otherwise,except aspermitted under Section 107 or 108 of the 1976 United StatesCopyright Act,without the prior written permission of the Author.Requests to the Author for permission should be addressed directly tobrooke@brookeborton.com.  \nCover art by Brooke D.Borton  \nISBN-13:978-1984993922  \nISBN-10:1984993925  \nTitles by Brooke D.BortonHoarding HeartsMutter  \nFor Cookie  \nPreface  \nI know I'm not the only one dealing with bipolar disorderwhile also trying to be a good mom.Mania and depressionhave become my tools.My greatest accomplishmentwould be for some other mother to read my latest anti-domestication rant toward my husband and think to herself,Goddamn that's me.  \nThe poems in this book are dark and somewhat pessimistic.I address some pretty painful stuff.My reactions may havebeen intense but they were appropriate at the time.Somuch of my poetry comes from moments of extreme  \nnegative emotion,while I am aware that's not the whole ofmy existence.  \nBeing bipolar is hell a lot of the time,but that hell existsregardless of what's actually going on in my life,becausedepression lies.Depression is that toxic sibling you fightwith all the time,always trying to knock you off your highhorse and get you in trouble with your mom.You're at aparty and want to have a good time but she's over there inthe corner taking slow sips of her beer,glaring at you overthe rim of her red cup,waiting to ruin it for you,so youcheck out altogether and refuse to see any possibility thatyou might enjoy yourself.Can you relate?  \nHappiness is that welcome guest I wish would never leave;she's not inside me panicking,frantically looking for anescape.So she hardly ever makes her way onto paper  \nI don't want my legacy for my children to be nothing but acollection of angry poetry.I don't want my family to thinkI was lying during the times they thought I was happy.Iwant my children and my husband to know that despite my  \nillness I felt joy,they brought me joy,they were enough.Ineed them to know this;furthermore,I need them to knowthat even when depression is whispering insults in my ear,my eyes are always on them and the sense of purpose theybring to my life.I have many regrets,but my children andmy husband are not among them.  \nSome day soon I will be able to express this in my poetry-I'm learning,evolving,finding new words-but in themoments my fingers flew over the keys in a fury,mayeveryone know in those moments I was able to convey mydeepest self:fears,flaws,truths,and half-truths.  \nAnd may they know that out of my restless mind andimpulsive body has come the greatest gift I've ever beengiven-motherhood.  \nBrooke D.Borton","cbCaijhEq5PZzmJn","https://ap.wps.com/l/cbCaijhEq5PZzmJn","pdf",2771866,110,"English","# Preface\n## Author’s intent and emotional context\n## Bipolar disorder, depression, and writing process\n## Joy, family, and legacy","[{\"question\":\"What message does the author want to leave for her family?\",\"answer\":\"She wants them to know she felt joy, that her illness did not erase love, and that her greatest gift has been motherhood.\"}]","Mutter - Preface | PDF",1790688429,169]