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 \nThis book is dedicated to my loving and caring family,especially my son Trevor,who has been a huge part of mysobriety.To my dear friends A1 Voss,Gary Truce and BettyAnn Gaube and the rest of my Binghamton Universityfamily.To my dear friend Peter Hoppenfeld,who was therefor me at the lowest point of my life and lifted me up so that I  \ncould find the path to recovery.To my dear sister Sharon,who has been there for me during my darkest times.  \nTo Claudia Ragni,who has always supported me and beenthere for me as well as the entire Ken Peters Center forRecovery family.To Louise Hay,whose teachings  \nencouraged me to never give up,to challenge myself to bethe person I was always meant to be.To my entire AA familywithout whose support,this book would not have beenpublished.To Mark Armiento,who taught me that you needto always follow your heart and to never let anyone tell youwhat you can or cannot do-to always know where Waldo is!To my family at Outreach who gave me the best drugcounseling education possible and later the opportunity togive it back by becoming a lecturer and student advisor.  \nAnd finally,to Jess.Our paths crossed as a godsend.Thisbook would not have been published if not for her wisdomand guidance and her belief in me!I am very grateful!  \nTo the countless individuals out there who never stoppedbelieving in me,my gratitude goes to you.  \nWe are all on this journey together!  \n# CHAPTER 1THE BEGINNING\n\nReflecting on how I had gotten to this place in my life.Thiswas one of the hardest things I ever had to do,but it was thefirst step that I had to take to begin to free myselffrom mypast.  \nSeptember 24th,2008,2:00am.  \n,  \nI have been sleeping on the couch in the living room for overa year now.My son is up in his room and his mother is inhers.Unable to sleep,I am drinking from a bottle of vintageport wine;trying to understand how and why my life hadunraveled.I had been out of work now for several monthsand drinking had become my new hobby.  \nMy most recent job was again,\"a dream job\";but like thosebefore,I had sabotaged it because my ego and self-will got inthe way.It has pretty much been like this ever since June 22,2002,when the company I was working for,WorldCom,tooka mighty tumble and literally went from Chapter 7 to Chapter11 overnight.  \n—1  \nI had been a senior level manager at the time and had  \naccumulated a significant amount of stock options over theyears.At WorldCom,management success was recognizedby rewarding stock options.Foolishly,I had put all mysavings and bonus monies back into the company and the401K plan.When the end came,I lost everything.I wentfrom a six-figure salary to unemployment and I fell with amighty thud.  \nUp to this point,I didn't think my drinking was a probl","cbCairf1PhUm3fPt","https://ap.wps.com/l/cbCairf1PhUm3fPt","pdf",2770694,64,"English","# ACKNOWLEDGEMENTS\n# CHAPTER 1 THE BEGINNING\n## September 24th, 2008, 2:00am\n## Unemployment, stock options, and WorldCom\n## Emotional strain and coping through alcohol\n## Transition to painkillers","[{\"question\":\"What prompted the author to reflect on their life at the start of the book?\",\"answer\":\"The opening chapter focuses on reflecting on how they reached that place in life and treating it as the first step toward freeing themselves from their past.\"},{\"question\":\"What key events contributed to the author’s downward spiral?\",\"answer\":\"The narrative links the fall in their career and the loss of savings after WorldCom’s collapse to later unemployment, heavy drinking, and worsening emotional distress.\"},{\"question\":\"How does the author describe their coping process as addiction deepened?\",\"answer\":\"The author explains that drinking was used to become numb, later intensifying as pain killers entered the picture, alongside drinking and self-sabotage.\"}]","Lost Innocence - My Journey from Addiction to Recovery | PDF",1790688189,99]