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New York City.I am the youngest of 3 children.Mybrother Tory is 4 years older than me and my sister Elena is 6 years older.  \nMy parents are from Galicia,Spain.They moved to New York when we were small because offinancial problems.My father was a medical doctor,and was very successful in his career inNew York,but he never forgot his homeland and traveled back and forth a lot.  \nI think that I was born with lack of testosterone and sometimes I thought that I was a  \ntranssexual because my dick is too small,and as a child l liked to play with dolls,and to dress asa girl.I didn't like sports,never played football and all of my activities were feminine.This is agenetic problem but of course my mother and father did their best to make me gay.  \nMy mother wanted to have another girl and when my father was away,she dressed me in mysister's clothes.I liked to walk in my mother's high heeled shoes,and she was very pleased tolend them to me.  \nI was not able to break the umbilical cord because I didn't have a father figure to identifywith.He was never present and when he was he used me as a sexual object.  \nOur house was big and in a nice neighborhood,surrounded by many trees,and with aswimming pool,but dark,cold and humid.I had the feeling that ghosts were dancing in thehalls and never wanted to be myself,and at night the light of my bedroom was always on.  \nOne of our maids was a fortune teller.Once she read my cards for me and told me that I wasgoing to die young and was going to hell because I was a bad boy.I told my mother:\"She isright;she is a witch and knows the future.\"Since then I became obsessed with hell.  \nApparently,Iwas my mother's favorite child,her\"pretty boy.\"She didn't let anybody getclose to me,not even my uncles,aunts,or cousins.She washed my hands 8 or 10 times a day,until they were red and sore.That was another obsession that I had for many years.  \nI was introverted and shy,and didn't talk until I was 5 years old.I had to go to a special schooluntil 6th grade.  \nFor me,my whole world was my mother as if I was stili in her womb.Unconsciously,I was inlove with her and my father was my rival.In my dreams,I always killed him,became thehusband of my mother and had intercourse with her.  \nShe transmitted me the hate she had toward my father and her crazy thoughts.Yes,she hatedmy father and all men around her.In the depths of her soul,she was a lesbian,but in thoseyears,lesbianism was not accepted by society so she had to get married.She rejected herfeelings and became a housewife with 3 kids.  \nI heard that as a child she was a“Tom Boy”and because of her erratic behavior she was sentto a reformatory where she spent 2 years,and that she was worse when she came out andnever changed.  \nMy mother was always talking bad about my dad,that he went out 3 or 4 nights a week withprostitutes,and that he never had sex with her.She kept me awake until late at night waitingfor him to come home.I would fall asleep in her lap 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