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As her sister Beth relays the news from the family ranch, the narrative explores grief that feels less like mourning and more like destabilization, unclaimed identity, and the yearning for a different ending. Each chapter turns toward memories, betrayal, and hard truths that reshape the bonds of family, love, and survival.","[OceanofPDF.com](OceanofPDF.com)  \nISBN: 979-8-9944021-8-4  \nCopyright © [2026] by [Rebecca Dayle] All rights reserved.  \nNo portion of this book may be reproduced in any form without written permission from the publisher or author, except as permitted by U.S. copyright law.  \n[OceanofPDF.com](OceanofPDF.com)  \n[OceanofPDF.com](OceanofPDF.com)  \nContents  \n1. Memory  \n2. Ghost Town  \n3. Dead Man's Daughter  \n4. The Blue of Your Eyes  \n5. Letters  \n6. How Do I?  \n7. The Mess of Me  \n8. Anything Means Everything  \n9. You Can't Touch the Fire  \n10. Truth Serum  \n11. Desert and the Sea  \n12. Can't Fix the Past  \n13. Middle of the Road  \n14. The War Inside  \n15. Surrender  \n16. Home Sweet Home  \n17. A Lesser Love  \n18. Make the World Stop  \n19. Tenacious Love  \n20. Ghost in Broad Daylight  \n21. Like I Was the Sun  \n22. Choking On Dust  \n23. Love Is Too Weak A Word  \n24. Happily Ever After  \n25. Fighting Dirty  \n26. Roar  \n27. Blue-Eyed Sunrise  \n28. The Color of Our Love Afterword  \nAbout the Author  \n[OceanofPDF.com](OceanofPDF.com)  \nChapter One  \nMemory  \nTESS  \nIHAD JUST GOTTEN BACK to the States when my sister Beth called to  \ntell me our father had died. Massive heart attack. Out on the tractor in the south field. Grant, a part-time worker on our ranch, found him. I guess if you had to pick a way to go, that one fit him, on his land, doing what he loved, alone.  \nWhen she told me, I wasn’t sure how to feel.  \nI hadn’t spoken to my father in twenty years. Not a word, not a letter, not even a postcard after that summer morning, when he hauled me off my feet and tore me from a future and the girl I loved.  \nOnce I reached New York, I never looked back. I cut all ties, taking out student loans so I wouldn’t be under his thumb in any way. Moved out of my Aunt’s home after a year of her trying to meddle.  \nThe walking away was the easy part. I can burn a bridge as an afterthought.  \nThe more challenging part was wading through the brutal truth that hating him was easier than admitting how much I still wanted him to turn this  \nthing around with us. To call me and have a moment where he chose me, his daughter, over his stoic, ironclad belief.  \nIt was always too uncomfortable for me to dig into why it mattered so much. Maybe because my mother had died, and a girl wants to have at least one parent in the world to love her.  \nNow that he was gone, this was just one more tucked-away hope of mine he took with him.  \nNevertheless, what I was feeling wasn’t grief exactly. It was more of an unhinging. Because no matter how fractured the relationship, when both your parents are gone, you become unclaimed. There’s no one left who once held you as a baby, no one left to disappoint, or to try, fruitlessly, to make proud.  \nYou’re just... unbelonging…even more than you were before.  \nIt was early in the evening when my sister Beth called. I was at a small motel up in the Catskills with lousy reception and no air conditioning. Couldn’t hear much of anything other than her crying hysterically. But, piece by piece, I put it together.  \nI knew when this day came, she would be beside herself.  \nEven after she married Lance and moved out, she still called him Daddy. Every Sunday, she and Lance went to his place for dinner.  \nI never understood what she was trying to hold on to in him, and in full transparency, I resented how much she fought to keep her bond to this man who destroyed me. But the father she knew and the one I disowned were two different men: the same DNA, but drastically different in each of our relationships.  \nI may have hated him, but I loved Beth even if our relationship had been starved and strained for years. She was the only family I had left. 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