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was about to turn38 and the futureIthought was mine-marriage,children-all fellapart.What followed was blow after blow:my sisterannouncedherengagement,Iwas told by a fertilitydoctor that Iwas\"not asuitable candidate\"foreggfreezing,andIsoon began having multiple panicattacks a day.  \nand Marie  \nfall apart,but a terrifyingaccident on a familyhike put everythinginto perspective  \nOrdinarily,my work would have been my solace;whenIwrote,it was as if time was suspended.Butnow,my words abandoned me.They would not come,nomatter howmuchItried.So,in April,Idecided totake the rest of the year offto recover.AsI was self-employed,this was notachoice Imade lightly-but myheart was broken and so too,it seemed,wasmy brain.  \nLouise O'Neill  \nAsbefitting amillennial woman who read Eat PrayLove at a formative age,Iattempted to recover usingevery kind of therapy imaginable.Unfortunately,even after afive-week tripto Thailand forayogaand wellness retreat,Ididn't feel\"healed\".Istill feltresentful and sad,andIbecame afraid that Iwould bemired in my anger for the rest of my life.  \nThat September,my father turned 63.He didn'twant presents;he wanted the whole family-myparents,me,my sister and her nowhusband-to climb  \nCarrauntoohil,the highest mountain in Ireland.It wasa beautiful morning,but I was tired.The insomnia thathad plagued me as a teenager had returned,makingevery day feel like anendurance test.Ithrew myselfinto the back seat ofmy parents'car,pretending tosleepunil we gotto County Kerry.I wanted tobeleftalone with my misery,ruminating on how badly I hadbeen treated.  \nIt was my first time climbing Carrauntoohil.Weascended through the Devil's Ladder,a steep,rockygully with loose stones and scree;you couldn't losefocus,even for asecond.At the summit,we ate oursandwiches and took photos at the wooden crossbefore the descent.Iwas in abetter mood-annoyingly,my parents were right that getting outsidewould help.Wewere close to the end,and so close to safety,whenIheard ascream.Iturned to see my mother falling-20ft?30ft?50ft?Icouldn't tell.Her body picked upspeed until she was a blur oflimbs and she crashedinto astone boulder with asickening crack.Wll,Ithought.My yearis about to get a lot worse.  \nIscrambled to reach her,screaming her name,my  \nsisterrunning behind me.My father was trying to get  \nto her,too.His face was pale and Iknew he thought  \nthe same as me,that she was dead.No one could have  \nsurvived a falllike that.  \nNo one ...except my mother.She moaned as shepushed herselfupto asitting position.Once Isaw shewas conscious,Iwas relieved to seeher teeth wereintact;she'd had them straightened for my sister'swedding andIknew she would be devastated if theywere affected.But she had an ugly gash across herforehead and she was haemorrhaging blood.Wewaitedhours for the helicopter to airlift her offthe mountainand they were some ofthe worst of my life,wonderingifevery minute that passed was time wasted-time thatshould have been spent saving 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